Do you ever wonder what it would be like to wake up, with a real smile?

Though,
I go nights sleepless,
And I feel completely useless,

To smoke some special drug, is all that it takes,
To laugh until you cry,
& Too sleep the night away.

Some things you want, you just can't have.

All you want is sex, And it's obvious I don't mean a thing to you. All I seem to be to you, is a girl you think you can just play around with. And I wont leave you, Why? Because I'm scared of being alone.

I felt sorry for her.. falling in to your stupid trap.
And all the lies you told her. She believed.
Until I fell for all of it too, and you made me feel so needed and alive, just so you could hurt me. But.. Now I miss you, I miss you more than anything.

I'm addicted.
The taste of the cocaine at the back of my throat, is all that I have.
It's everything I need.
You don't need me, and neither do the others.
So i'll have a line, sit back and feel the happy tingles through my body.

I have nothing here any more.
I need to find my way out.

I wish you would stop lying. You're hurting me.
Or don't you care?

I don't want to be here, I want to be up there.
In the clouds. With the stars.
With no hurt, no lies.
Away from all of this.
Truth be told, I hate everything down here.

Have you ever gotten to the point where, it actually hurts to say 'I'm fine.' ?