I do not sleep for the simple calm of rest. I sleep because it is the only thing that can steal my being from all that exist in my waking.

My doctor told me to stop having intimate dinners for four unless their are three other people.

The nurses and my oncologist think my relationship with disease in unhealthy.

Everything is akward for me.

SCHIZOPHRENIC!

Keeping things hidden is a quick way to isolate yourself and go a bit crazy.

Find me a honest man who doesnt wish to live another mans life i will show you a liar.

Maybe i should just go up to him and say "hi, im heaven. I know you dont know me but would u like to go out some time?"

I suppose I'm just a little tired of being single...and pretending i like it.

I just want to make art, read books and find someone who likes me enough to kiss my face.