I pray for my grave as i sing my last song, and read the last book, So convenient that all three end in goodbye. The curtain lowers, the book snaps shut, and i close my eyes, with only one last breath for the slightest bit of luck...

Do you even notice my absence? My dull and lifeless eyes? Do you even notice that my grave is being dug and my funeral being planned...?

I have alot of good, caring, friends. But i still feel so alone and misunderstood...

Please remember those few simple words. Weather you know it or not, they may end up saving someones life...

Its getting so old, feeling like this. Like nothings right, and im not real, and your only a dream.

Its so expected now, If you dont end up breaking me to, Ill be over here trying to figure out what the hell is wrong with you.

And right before i hit the ground, I whisper my goodbye, even though no ones around to hear. That smile turns into a frown, and a tear runs down my face.

Smile at me with hope,
Call me with meaning,
Hug me with warmth,
And kiss me with passion,
But in the end you always end up killing me.

The one thing i can never have is staring me in the face.

Betray me not, your promise binds you like a lock. Wont let me go, cant let me fall. Silent now my heart will stop, and yours starts ticking like a clock.