Part ONE:
I don't really know how to feel any more. I knew this day would come eventually, when you'd find someone new. But I didn't realize when that day came I'd be hurt so bad. I'm the one that let you go,i'm the one that told you not to wait.

Every person comes into our lives for a reason. Each one brings something we must learn.
I learned form you that trust, it's just an illusion.
And love, it's just a four letter word. Used when convenient.

The anguish I feel from never getting over u is painful.Yet, so dull compared to the pain I feel everytime I see HIM.He is who he is because of me, because of what I did.HE wears that cold mask, like clay,never to trust or love.Because of me.Because of u.

Our paths were always meant to cross, but they were never meant to forever be intertwind.
Like a child with and imagenary friend we weren't meant to last.
Yet, knowing this doesn't stop me from loving you. It just makes it hurt worse.

She lingers where she is no longer wanted, leaves behind those who are willing to have her. Lets go when she should hold on and holds on to those who have long let her go.