That first love never ever fades, I realised that when I saw you with her and wanted nothing more then to ball my eyes out... and that exactly what I did when I was alone that night.

Everyone is always saying suicid is the easy way out... for me its the only way out.

Everything is my fault. I was stupid enough to let him go now all I do is hurt. Everything is so messed up and I just keep hoping it will get easier but instead I just get it all shoved back in my face.

I'm sick of you always making me feel guilty for moving on from you. If you can throw me around and move on at will, why the hell can't I? As of now you do NOT have that control.

I'm not supposed to care anymore... but in all honesty I do... And it still hurts like hell...

I'm so fed up with not being able to just get over you. After everything you put me through, how can I still love you?

Dear eyes, please don't cry. Dear lips, please don't tremble. Dear heart, please don't break....

I'm supposed to be happy... but I'm not.

I spent two years getting over you... and now that I finally have, you decided to walk back into my life and remind me of all the reasons it took two years to do it.

What do you honestly want me to do? I've given you everything but it was never enough... I have nothing else to give you. Please just let me get over you...