You made me hate myself and I don't know how to stop that.

I may be smiling on the outside,
But inside I'm dying.
I may say that I'm ok,
But honestly I'm lying.
I may not cry in front of you,
But that doesnt mean the tears dont shed.
I may act like I'm enjoying life
When really I want to be dead.

I hate it when people ask me if I'm ok expecting to hear the truth, but they never do...they never will..

"I'm scared to open myself up to people because then they know my weakness. They know exactly how to hurt me...and that's the last thing I want to be...hurt again"

I think you made a good choice baby, because that girl holding your hand is more beautiful than I will ever be...

I still get those butterflies when your name pops up in my screen even though it's nothing, it's still makes my heart race

Heaven to me is feeling your touch. Having your arms around me. Kissing you from dusk till dawn.
Now hell to me is being alone. Not having your arms around me to scare away the demons. Not having those lips to push away my thoughts. Not having you

I'd give anything to touch you, feel your skin against mine. To kiss you, lips to lips. To hug you, feel your warmth. To have you, all of you, including your heart...I'd give anything..

I felt my lungs start to cave in when you said it's over. I felt my throat start to dry when you said you can't do this anymore. And then I felt my heart rip to a million pieces when you said you never loved me...

I miss the days where I could smile without faking. I miss the days when I wasn't a wreck. I wasn't falling apart at the seams. I miss those days...