I just wanted to be happy. Was that too much to ask of you?

Heaven to me is feeling your touch. Having your arms around me. Kissing you from dusk till dawn.
Now hell to me is being alone. Not having your arms around me to scare away the demons. Not having those lips to push away my thoughts. Not having you

I'd give anything to touch you, feel your skin against mine. To kiss you, lips to lips. To hug you, feel your warmth. To have you, all of you, including your heart...I'd give anything..

I felt my lungs start to cave in when you said it's over. I felt my throat start to dry when you said you can't do this anymore. And then I felt my heart rip to a million pieces when you said you never loved me...

I miss the days where I could smile without faking. I miss the days when I wasn't a wreck. I wasn't falling apart at the seams. I miss those days...

I just wanted to be treated like a queen for atleast a day. I just wanted to feel like I was special even though I'm not.

I've always wanted him to be happy. But I always hoped that he would be happy with me, not with her...

Honestly?
No, I'm not okay. And I've never been "just okay". And I don't think I will ever be "just okay"...

I drove around endlessly searching for you,
But I only found memories that beat me black and blue..

I'm always there for others, but they're never there for me.
They're never there to take the razor away.
And they're never there to help me through the pain...