Open your ears && close your eyes <3

I can't solve it all, so let it be <3

Im torn apart from words you said,your actions are haunting,They live in my head,
My mind is gone im spinning around, I reach for you but ur nowhere to be found,Your drowning the one that kept you alive,
What happened to that big hearted guy.

Its one big vicious cycle that just keeps going around and around and around. When does it end? I'm getting dizzy and sick of all this confusion spinning in my head.