i'm kelsey, i've been writing poems for about 3 years now. My life is not happy, nor is it sad. also, these last 3 years i have been suffering from, loss of a grandpa, depression, anxiety and many other extremely troubling issues. Depression eats away your brain, and it ate away enough of my brain that i still believe in hurting myself, and i still believe that i'm sad. and somedays i'm lonely i'm not always sure how to feel but i know some day i will train my brain to work again. I've learned that you shouldn't take life for granted because maybe life will take you for granted. i've also learned that no matter what, you always have your best friends. I dont know how i would have gotten this far if it wasn't for molly, she's the girl that kept me from the knife, she's the girl that kept me from the edge. she always keeps me in line and i love that about her. i've realized that life does go on, and even when you're sader then ever, the sun still rises.i've always learned the earth revolves around the sun, not me. And that when i'm sad and snappy, i dont need to take it out on other people. i think that what you learn in school and what you learn all by yourself on life, is way different. and honestly i think life issues are wayy more important then school and grades.i am B average student, not very smart, but not dumb. i pay attention on those days i'm awake and peppy. but the days i'm sad or angry and just dont feel like listening, you will find me in the back of the classroom just a day dreaming away. i am in volleyball and track. running takes off a lot of anxiety. i like to run when i'm really sad or angry. it helps me get all my feelings down and out and all i have to think about is where i'm going to go. i might run somewhere i've never been and think i'm lost, but i've been lost many other times, in my thoughts...in school...while working on math..plenty of times not just while running. so i retrace my steps, think over the problem and find myself on my way home. volleyball makes me feel a ton better about myself. i love the feeling when you set the ball and let the other player get a good hit. it feels so good to win a game and kind of throw it in the other teams face. i get a lot of frustration out in volleyball. and then somdays i just dont feel like playing.
my favorite holiday is halloween, i love the idea of being someone else for a day. i really go all out for it.
u might think i'm weird, and sure ..who knows i might be, but i'm me and that's all ill ever be..