Why does it feel like I'm slowly losing grip?

I'm sorry I don't know what to do anymore

Every hurtful word thats said, no matter how many times you say sorry, is permanent forever.... Don't forget that. If you say or do something hurtful, the pain never goes away.... </3

I'm lost forever to the darkness....
Funny thing is, you never saw me fall. </3

Is it time to say my final goodbyes yet???

Why couldn't I have gone just a little deeper?
Then I wouldn't be crying while sitting here...

Why do I even try?
Someday I will surely die.
So why can't today be the day I stop crying?

I'm breaking to the point of no looking back.... Gonna go out in the rain and cry. Hoping it will help... If not know friends, that I love you all.

Please help me,
don't leave me in the cold,
don't let me tighten that rope.
please, don't let me die....

One little step, and its all over.
Tell me I matter, or push me off the edge.

Let me die upon this night,
let me leave this world in fright.
Nobody could ever see how not right
I was, but who cares when the sun is bright?

Truth is, I'm finished.