After 4 years dad i've finally realized...,
its not my fault , its not my fault you left us without a look back .you had told me when i was little that you'd always be there......but i guess that was just another lie :(

I thought i could handle keeping my anger
inside, but couldnt and i hurt the one person who tried to help me ..... im sorry </3

All they see is the smiles and the laughing part of me, why can't they look a little closer and see my cold and distant eyes that bear so many burdens someone my age shouldn't have. i'm starting to think i need help .... but i dont know how to get it :(

Told my best friend what I've been doing , regret it terribly now that she looks at me with such judging eyes......

Been sober for two weeks, know its not that long but i thought people who cared would be so proud... what was i thinking! no one cares that i stopped drinking my life away :(

Its getting so hard, the booze is becoming highly tempting .... one little drink wouldn't hurt would it ? or would it consume me completely?

I tried to stop... i tried, but like they had said the bottles consumed me and i fell into that darkness after 2 weeks of goodness :( ... how a waste of a human being i am :/

I'm done fighting.... i think its time to let everything go , let the darkness consume me, i give up trying to win a hopeless fight, i already knew i would never win it..

Friends are like stars .. in do time they both fade away ...

It hurts knowing that every time i need you....you just disappear without a second look back... why do you not care dad?