No matter what happens I still care about him, and I'm bleedy 24-7, I'm exactly where I had nightmares of before. He makes me feel safe, but now he can't stop the knifes from digging there whole way through me.

I feel like is this unbearable pain even natural if it isn't real love being thrown away.

Somehow you'll find the strength, you get through one day without him and you have enough strength inside of you to get through the rest of your days without him. As close as to the clief as you may be!

You're not alone, not one bit. Don't let anyone tell you to stop crying or that's he's just some guy, that's not one bit encouraging. You'll heal at your own pace and stitch yourself up your own way.

DO YOU EVER MISS ME?!

Do you ever miss the feeling of my hand in yours
Do you ever miss our daily hugs I couldn't get enough of
Do you ever miss loving me as I love you
Do you ever miss everything that we knew we might one day go through together

Things are always falling down how do you turn things back around?!

The only choice I have each day at school is to hid from you my dying heart

One day Josh will realize that girl he is looking for still is me and that day will be the day I kiss him for the first time, as he wipes away all these tears of missing him and the day I open his heart is real love!

I wish he would realize he loves me too and he always has and he was misjudging how love feels when he said he didn't love me anymore. I wish he wanted me back and loved me as much as I love him and miss him!!!