I cover up my feelings as well as my sleeve covers up my scritches wrists.

"It's numb, nothing but numbness engulfs me. Hurt, nothing but burning and stabbing aches run over me. Memories, nothing but memories surrounds me!!!"

"Everything always looks better in the morning, until you remember everything!"

"Everything always looks better in the mornings, until you remember he's gone!"

"Everything always looks better in the morning, until you remember where you are, and what people you've lost along the way!"

Forever in my heart, you ripped those words apart.

Bring him back, you pray, you might get to a point somedays you wish you could write him a goodbye letter and then say goodbye to life.

Forever falling apart, that's how you feel, a treasure and an unbelievable gift is lost and nothing but the worst ache you've ever engulfed has been gained.

"I carry with every blink regret
so many disappointments lay in a ended relationship when there was so much you held back, and waited for, but then again, it wouldn't be much better to expereinces these dreams, then miss them when it is lost!"

IT FEELS LIKE ONE BIG NIGHTMARE THAT IS EATING ME FROM THE INSIDE OUT AS I TRY TO SURVIVE THE REALITY UNROLVING OF IT.