And I sit here, listening to the fireworks and the clock ticking to midnight.
New year.
And i sit here, tears in my eyes and pain in my heart, drunk out of my mind - because i know that this year will be the same as any other.

Surrounded by fireworks, shadowed in the night, lost in the moment but I still know that it won't ever be alright.

A thousand new years could pass and i would still be in love with you and crying because I can't have you.

My new years resolution is to get -over- you.
the same as it has been for the past few years since you swept into my life and sent my heart a flutter with fears.

With every bang, with every cheer, with every kiss that couples share, with every laugh and drink that's raised - i will miss you here and a single tear will fall for every star int he sky that is lit by those memories of fireworks tonight.

Never forget - never forget the memories that took up the last year, even as the new year dawns - look back every time you can and remember. Never forget.

And i'd ask you to kill me before you go, if you ever planned on leaving.

Life is not what you make it but what it makes of you.

Wise man say - if you walk through puddle, you will get wet. If you drive through puddle - other people get wet.

I smile till my face hurts and laugh until my throat burns.
I fake it.
This laugh, this smile, this -happiness- you see. I just want you to smile and not worry about me.