I am crumbling inside,
But I don't show it out...
To the one who first find my letter,
I apologize for the state my body must be in...
I'm the girl, who hides behind a smile every day.
I'm the girl, who has a tough exterior...
Life is sometimes short
We complain...
The time has come
For me to stop trying...
I'm still me
Deep inside...
It's really a shame
That I have to let you go...
We can't keep pretending
I won't do this anymore...
I hurt the people I love
Though I don't mean to...
There's anger in this world of darkness
A feeling too strong to hide...
I look in the mirror
What do I see...
I can't take this anymore.
It hurts so much...
Your Feelings
I cant see and understand how you are the way you...
Silence like a voice to be unheard
Quiet ocean waters left undisturbed...
You dont seem to be capable of loving me and...
Is it fear that makes you run, or am I a fool to...
Its not so easy loving me,
Theres so much of me thats wrong...
There are many words I wish I could say,
And not one of them would do my rage any justice...
Would you even care if i were to die
We used to be so close...
The mind gets angry but the heart still cares
Make sure your decision isn't rational...
Its hard to pretend you're happy
When all you feel is pain...
The thoughts are back
The dangerous ones that make me wish I was dead...
I'm worthless.
They tell me not to believe it...
Trust me
I know how it feels to lock yourself in your room...
There was a point in my life
Where nothing was worth it anymore...
I'm tired of all of these things but you don't...
She hides a pain, deep inside.
No one knows her desire to die...
Life.
What's the point...
What happened to the girl I use to be
Seems like she disappeared and cant be seen...
I talk to you at night time
And just assume you can hear...
It wasn't meant to be like this
Wasn' mean to happen this way...
One step away from the edge
One breath away from my last...
A single kiss and I'm lost
I touch that tells me that I found everything I...
Who would I be?
If I was with you...
I'm just struggling
Struggling to smile...
As the days go by
Things get harder...
I'm trapped in a cold dark box,
I'm scared to be alone with my thoughts...
These feelings will someday subside, there's no...
I thought I found true happiness
A terrible reality hit...
Every time I think I've found it
My heart gets crushed...
What is love
how do i love...
I found myself in my depression.
Held confessions despite suggestions and learned...
I Am A Lonely Road Of
Broken Dreams...
A good friend of mine once said I was the saddest...
not taking it as an insult, but food for thought...
She trembles
Tears streaming down her face...
I don't know who I am,
Who I've become...
These thoughts
Tugging my mind down...
I met him on-line
Didn't expect that he will be mine...
I have got a secret
A secret so untold...
What cutting does for me
what it does is many things...
Crumbly, nutty, chocolate cake
Understands that my heart is fragile and can break...
I cut and I cut,
Because all I want to do is bleed...
I know it's impossible to love me...
Because I make it so...
My heart ache the day you went away
in tears and sorrow i sleep and wake...
It's been so long since I've seen you
Held your hand and heard your voice...
It feels as if we are constantly fighting a...
The kind that dosnt make sense...
My mind wonders, then I stop and stare down.
My arms are numb as I left my head, and look...
I can no longer live with the emptiness that lies...
Day after day...
This journey of mine is a long one...
No one said it was going to be easy...
Every Day...
There are words that go left unsaid...
You don't know me, don't know what I've been...
So don't act like you know what's best for me...
I can't find it anymore.
I have lost...
I can't trust...
I could never be that blissful...
I once knew a girl
Who died of a broken heart...
Some days I hurt so bad...
I just want to cry...
I'm not ashamed to say...
That I've been through some things...
As the days go by...
I can honestly tell you...
I wake up, try to face the day,
but it's always just the same...
I feel broken and used, i feel useless and abused...
Well here we go again...
jumping into an endless sin...
For once I felt alive.
Into your trap I took a dive...
No one knows this side of me
With all my insecuritys...
If I was diagnosed as "permanently...
with no chance of recovery...
What we had, well it was nice,
but in the end you won't think twice...
Finally...
I can see the sunset...
"With each day that passes
With each sun that sets...
I have`nt known you that long. But the story goes...
It is hard to believe this is real
It is hard to believe that he is actually here...
As you held me there in your arms, covered in a...
You know, I would only dream for someone as...
Where to begin with these feelings that I feel
Started from nothing, i guess thats how i know its...
I don't know what to think
He might be the one...
Just the thought of you
Brightens my whole day...
I don't know how to tell you how I feel
I don't know how to express my pain...
I'm so lost right now,
Not sure what to do...
The lights were dimmed and
there was a melancholic presence...
I'm not perfect girl
i have catch attitudes when I'm mad...
I am hopeful, but I am hidden.
I wonder if things will ever be the same again...
All alone in this empty place,
In all of my thoughts I see your face...
After everything you've put me through,
I'm still slightly in love with you...
Sometimes it would be nice if someone would just...
Hold me, embrace me like you did when we first...
Make my heart race, and my soul feel complete...
I held you and your grip was so tight, u kissed me...
I sit alone because the quite listens to me
I stand alone so I. Know not to count on no one...
I don't know what to do. So tired of everything...
What can I say to a heart that is puzzled?
Dont worry one day you will be solved...
My hands are trembling with fear,
I'm so petrified of tomorrow...
The hardest thing I can do to us is letting you go
Losing you forever is a decision I must finally do...
As the memories linger my eyes fill up with tears
One slowly falls down my cheek as your picture...
To the people I love so dearly:
As I sit here writing this note...
Standing still, not moving at all.
Wondering again where I went wrong...
I look in the mirror
to see a stranger...
How do I say goodbye when all I can do is cry.
We spent 3 wonderful years together but the storm...
There is this ferocious storm that is beginning to...
Do you ever feel like theres no where else you can...
No one else you can talk too...
I remember the times we shared,
Laughing together...
Should've known
by the way he treats me...
Of all the cheating and the lies I hear everyday,
Of all the silent screams without the words to...
SILENCE
Gives you the power to think deeply...
Honestly...
Yes...
It's time to let go, it's time to move on
The pain the hurt I want it all gone...
Lies had become part of me
Since I know u has somebody else...
All I wanted was to be happy with you
I wanted a bestfriend, someone I could talk to...
Forgotten times, thoughts of just you and me;
Even after all is gone, it's just us that I still...
This story is a part of us,
For months its been the same...
Anger
Pain...
Sometimes I wonder how you do it.
How you can sit back and watch yourself hurt...
What do you do when you've had enough?
When you're so tired of being tough...
Depression is running through my head,
These thoughts make me think of death...
I dream about dying,
lying six feet in the ground...
I sit here, laying in bed,
with crazy thoughts in my head...
Tears of guilt
Tears of remorse...
Do you hear,
the lack of sound...
Through my hands,
I feel the rope slip...
I can't let you look into by eyes
To see the pain they hold...
I don't know where I will begin
Guess I shouldn't of let you in...
Departure took away the little dreams
I had budding for us. There were barely...
In this lonely girls world
Sunrises across the sky of world, But...
Sometimes things go bad.
Sometimes we hurt...
I'm trying to let go, trying to move on,
its so hard to leave you behind, you have my...
In my head there is a secret
a secret that no-one must find...
Don't let me fall asleep
With tears in my eyes...
If you look at me I'll say I'm fine
Though it's a lie most of the time...
Do you know the feeling...
when you're in love with someone...
Time has chased the brightness
of partially lit avenues...
I need to be with you so badly.
I want you next to me so that...
Why do people look at me,
like i am not worth living...
Drowning in the memories.
Caught up in the lies...
Maybe if I was skinnier you would have chose me
Well I guess I'll starve myself to see how thin I...
My problem in life that I am desperate to change
Is that I care for people who never do the same...
Life is slowly slipping away,
I have nothing to live for...
I don't think i can cope anymore, not without you.
i cant seem to eat or sleep or smile without you...
You left me alone
And then wondered why I wasn't there with you...
I'm tired of trying to make you happy
I'm tired of trying to be happy...
You built these walls around you
To try to encage yourself...
I'm standing there with blurred, dark eyes,
nothing but a disgrace...
Have you ever felt like
all you had was gone...