I don't know how I was before, only how I am right now...I'm alright...
A person I hate
Low as I can get
Rightfully shameful
Insecure
Giving up
Having to cry myself to sleep
Too messed up to care anymore...

Give me a reason for smiling, for I fear that I have none.
This heartache that continues to cause so much pain,
I know has just begun.