I realize now that he loves me
as one might love a fixed object in their home...

At night I leave the house and sit on the roof...
And I try, god I try and convince myself Im not...

“When I asked the cliché “What are we?” I...

Some words are too heavy to share.
Like...

Smokey lungs, smokey eyes
Little waist, little thighs...

Shes toxic, shes poison
So terribly bad for me...

The acidic taste of emptiness,
The heavy feeling of all that nothing...

When my chest gets tight, and my heart constricts.
When I cant ignore the empty spaces behind and...

The truth? The real reason I have to walk away...
Because if you looked at me the way you do when I...

Baby, I swear,
I name the roads for you...

I walked into that murkey lake
with my mouth wide open...

I lie in bed, staring blindingly outward,
unblinking...