I sit alone on the roof tonight, cloaked with sadness and scarfed in lonliness but they do nothing to warm me up and instead remind me of how cold it is outside.

I don't wanna go through that ever again.
I dont want someone to pretend to be a decent person
I don't want to think I love them
And then watch them rip me to shreds again.
I can't do it twice.

Sometimes I just have to laugh at myself and say "I hate myself."

The Ugly: Autobiography
By: Me

I see you laugh when you wanna cry
Darlin, you live but i know you wanna die...

But if I were to trip in traffic
I wouldnt try to get back up...

The thin red lines that marr my skin
They're signs of the battle I fight within.

Wings of Crushed Velvet,
I can feel the wind...
but I cannot fly

Some times I wish I was deaf..to my own mind...

I never knew it was possible to leave school with so many regrets...