No happily ever after, just disaster...

I want a girl who I can come home to every night and be enveloped in love and care, but also one who has a feisty side.

I'm better off hiding with the monsters inside my mind.

You think I'm crazy because voices in my head scream at me every minute of every day. But really, they're just whispering all the damage you and everyone else have done to me.

I'm not sorry I left her. Good. One less life to ruin. Less guilt for my conscience.

*bows* I appreciate your amusement as I readjust my mask after each and every act. Surely this means I have perfected the art of lying and saying, "I'm fine."

I had to wonder if she truly still loves me when she called me my nickname yesterday... Held my hand... Hugged me hard... Broke my heart all over again as it ached to be able to love her like I did before...

I miss the way she told me I cross her mind like cherry blossoms... I miss the way she used my nickname... I miss the way she said "I love you"

Give me one reason I shouldn't travel there, one damn good reason. It will allow me to do what I will with my life, as I planned so many moons ago.

Paramore saved my ability to love <3