Holding my tongue until it bleeds
is the only thing holding back the screams.

Might anyone have a needle and thread? My heart ripped open again. Help?

How can such sweet words put me in tears?

When no one is home I blare the angriest music I have and pretend I'm somewhere else

Helping is making me break down every night and pour out my soul to the black walls of my room, wishing someone was there

Shallow waters captivate me; I see the creatures within and ponder at their beauty.

I smile and I kiss you but in my mind I'm saying, "I don't deserve her, I don't deserve her, I don't deserve her" and I can't help but think it's true

My stars are beckoning and whispering "come away, we love you..." I dont want to leave alone. Not again.

Every time I smile, I catch myself thinking of you and it fades because I want you more than you know.

I am so tired of making people frown more than smile. That is why I walk alone. That is why I'm afraid to ask.