"Every time I try to get a little closer
You shut down and the conversation's over
I'm right here, but you leave me in the dark
Show me your private parts"

It's one of those nights when my heart is continuously beating loud and hard, leaving my lips with a smile.

I listened to "Private Parts" by Halestorm ft. James Michael. Made me feel all of those feelings again.

"Come and take me
Love you save me
Like nobody else
Now I can be myself"

My right arm and hand are slightly tinged with bruising from the repeated beating of rulers. Should be fun to move tomorrow.

Was cleaning my room when "Because You Loved Me" came around in my CD player... Made everything feel okay again.

"Who are you to judge my love, Yes, I am different
But my heart works just the same/
This is me, Here we are, I know I may not be everything you wanted, But this is all I got"
- Jen Foster (best coming out song)

Thank you for confirming those feelings. Thank you so very, very much.

There's a certain feeling I've had all night, the reason I didn't sleep more than half an hour. Keep telling myself it's not that but it just gets stronger.

Ouch. Kay. Done.