I have fought many a battle, some that left me...
However this battle, this fight took a chunk of my...

I'm caught in the middle of a war...
A war with no correct side...

I still hear a pitter patter and think of you
But I no longer look for you...

I was always told growing up that I should
play fair and play nice...

Your safe here little one
Frightened of hands nearing your face...

Sparks cascade from seemingly nowhere...
Emotions run higher than Mt. Everest...

What I'm feeling is that of climbing a lengthy...
way up high and when you reach the top...

Something as simple as a puddle of rain caught me...
Just on the ground, by our front steps, filling...

My heart is broken, yet full
I don't know what to do...

The truth started to hit last night as I sank into...
thinking, grieving, trying to ignore the voices in...

Sitting in sunlight, listening,
the voices blocked out by the sound of my thoughts...

He loved like the ocean,
quiet yet strong and powerful...