Why is it that the one thing you think can make your life better always seems to make it worse..?

If only you could see behind my smile...you'd regret so much...

I thought things were getting better...but I realize Im farther away then ever before..

When you finally think you have something...
you realize that its really nothing at all...

Your whole life your grown up to thinking your someone special
Then something changes
And you realize that you really nobody at all....

All the days you spent with me
Now seem so far away
And it feels like you don't care anymore

And i doubt that i will ever find out
If there's any way to get out of feeling all alone
Cause latley I've been thinking
Maybe no one's going to save me
I'll have to do it on my own.....

My world seems so black,
Im so scared to look forward,
afraid to look back, what has become of me,
I don't even know myself anymore...

I dont know why i feel this way...
My problems spin inside my head...
I dont know how to handle it...

When you realize you dont matter to someone
you begin to wonder if you matter to anyone...