Every night I lay in tears,
Ashamed of what I’ve become...

Last night after our most recent fight,
I ran up to my bedroom...

It wasn't rape...
The height of my self worth...

Your life is like a carousel,
Ever turning slow...

My nightmares always smother my dreams,
Forcing me to wake up crying...

I'm sorry I can't be,
Everything you want...

There isn`t much that makes me happy,
But I need to think of twenty things...

*I know it's long and confusing, but perhaps if...
She was a happy child...

Dancing in circles is pain in my head,
It’s motions are blurring my thoughts...

I picture your face,
And oh, how I smile...

Look at me, Steven, look in my eyes,
If only you knew how much I have cried...

I have this on-line friend,
Who seems to care about me so...