I've Broken Both My Legs Falling For You

~Bleeds No More - Silverstein~

What's the point in living, when everyday is the same? For all this pain I'm feeling, I have only myself to blame.

My "good mornings" are cursed, my smile is fake. I hate myself more with every breath that I take. My tears are poison which suffocate my soul. And as guilt consumes me I will never be whole.

I can't hold back the tears that soak into my skin.
There's so much I need to say but I don't know where to begin.
I am so sorry, but I can't help feeling insecure.
I can't fight back the feeling that you don't love me anymore.

Sorry I can't help feeling insecure, but I've never needed to hear those three words more.
Even as you say it I can tell it isn't true. You'll never love me, not the way I need you to!

Constantly ignoring the pain consuming me, but this time it's cut too deep. I'll never stray again.

~Evanescence~

All the times I've tried to walk away from you, I fall into your abounding grace and love is where I am.

~Evanescence~

Let me break your f.cuking heart and ask if we can still be friends!

*From my poem "The Day I Almost Lost You"

Tonight the heaven joins in with my sorrowful song

You are not me, you don't know how I feel, what I've been through, how the world looks through my eyes. So don't judge what you don't understand!