I'm the girl sitting self consciously, covered in a mask, she's the girl who doesn't give a damn,

I understand you'll always choose her,
Even though you say you love me.

I'm sorry I'm not who you want.

&& It's too bad we didn't work out,
But having you as my best friend,
Is by far the best decision I've ever made.
I will always love you.

& You Tell me that the more we talk, the more you miss, I want to tell you that even when I'm with him I think of you.

I don't know what this means.

Him: I'm being jealous
Her: I'd love to see you be jealous.
Him: It's just knowing you were all mine. I liked you so much, It's just a case of you don't know what you had till it's gone
Her: *Speechless*

& I'm telling him that as long as I'm with him I'd be happy... whilst thinking of someone else.

& I'm starting to wonder if we'll ever get this right, I'm trying so hard, but all we do is fight.

&& I hold my tongue,
knowing it's not right,
Just so we can sleep tonight.

Because I can't stand another fight.

& You turned to me saying you
were here in my life for a reason,
the only reason I can see is you're
Just another boy to prove there's no one but him

& the truth is I'm like a drug,
Good at the beginning, making you happy,
but as you become addicted
I start to tear you apart

--> all because you're nothing compared to him.

Open Your Eyes and You'll See Me Standing,
Heart in my hand and my Love Crash Landing.

-->Lyrics by a friend's band <33