9:46 pm staring at my four walls
with their spiked ceiling...

I poke at you
But you don't respond...

Mom lights the candles
Sister holds the camera...

I'm done pretending to care
I'm done crying...

When did the feeling
Become just words on paper...

We always laugh
We always kid...

Today I woke up in a daze
Couldn't believe the look on your face...

Thursday night you gave me an extra long hug...
When i woke up Friday morning the rain was coming...

I wish you were here when I feel alone
I wish you were here when he brings me down...

I never knew your pain
I never knew your hell...

What has happened to me?
i cant cope with all this sh*t anymore...

I'll hold my head high
You'll never see me cry...