I can't keep running from my fears,
Why do I keep holding back my tears...

If I didn’t call,
Would you care...

Daddy did you quit,
or did you light up today...

Why am I still standing here,
trying to believe that I am worth it...

December 27th, 2004
Dearest Lovely...

December 26th, 2004
Dearest Lovely...

I look into your eyes and see the real you,
I see a side no one else understands...

How can you love your self,
When you don't see a single thing to love...

The ground is covered in white,
the trees sparkle with delight...

My tears mean nothing anymore,
whats the point if everyone slams the door...

Muffled sounds in my ears,
seeing many people but I cannot hear...

Why am I caught in confusion?
my heart and my mind are in a war...