I can't stand my self,
I try and I always fail...

The flower in my heart,
it's petals they slowly wilt...

Why am I still standing here,
trying to believe that I am worth it...

Why am I caught in confusion?
my heart and my mind are in a war...

Daddy did you quit,
or did you light up today...

December 26th, 2004
Dearest Lovely...

December 27th, 2004
Dearest Lovely...

Tears are forming in my eyes,
Because once again my parents pierce...

The ground is covered in white,
the trees sparkle with delight...

Muffled sounds in my ears,
seeing many people but I cannot hear...

Standing here listening to the wind,
the chills up and down my spine...

How can you love your self,
When you don't see a single thing to love...