Through the hard times there was one person who got me through it his name is Mandy Kane... his music inspired me to live again... here is his site i really think that u should check it out
www.mandykane.com

The best part about life is death

I seem so placid and calm but on the inside im screaming and crying

I h8 this thing inside of me
this thing that they call life
thats y i try to cut it out
with a razor blade or knife

Why is it that the only time you wil get close to me is when you are drunk? is it because it hurts you too much to see me so broken?

Even in my dreams im screaming
help me please, stop this feeling
trying to run, face all flusted
i myself cannot be trusted
falling to my knees im screaming
wake me up tell me im dreaming
even tho that is not true
help me kno y i am so blue

Slash my wrists slash them deep
put me in eternal sleep
pull the trigger hold it tight
soon i will see the white light

I want him but i dont want to hurt him i want him to kno but knowing will hurt him but him not knowing will hurt me again I choose to hurt myself

Kill me now
kill me please
im begging you
im on my knees
make it stop
make it end
my broken heart
will never mend

How can i love you so much yet hate you so much then hate myself for loving you