Even tho i say im happy i dont really mean it
its just to hard to explain how im feeling
with out telling u that im dead on the inside

Just because i dont tell u my problems doesnt mean that their not there

U asked me y i am depressed its coz i have nothing to be happy about

Every time i think about wat u did i hate u even more every time i think about how i couldnt stop u i cut a little deeper every time i think about how she didnt care i wish my life was over

Even tho my world is falling
even tho my heart is breaking
even tho i feel like dying
even tho im sick of hurting
even tho it wont get betta
even tho the blood keeps coming
even tho my life is ending
i hate myself more than ever

As i sit in the dark and cry
i wonder why ive been living a lie
why couldnt i just say
wat happened to me that bad bad day
the truth i just couldnt tell
which is why into the darkness i fell.

Every time they speak i cut a little deeper
every time they say something bad i tighten the rope
everytime they judge me i pull the trigger a little harder
for everytime they called me names this is what they get
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!**BANG**!!!!!!!!!

As i slide this sharp cold blade along my wrist i pray for the strength to press down, then when i finally do the sweet release of death follows.

You were older, you knew better
i was young, i didnt know
how could you do that to me?
how could you be so low?
you made me trust you
you broke that trust cant you see
you broke not only that trust
you also broke me!!!

How can this little slit upon my wrist cause so much hurt for others but at the same time bring me relief??