I don't know what you find
When you look and smile at me...

My mind is so chaotic
I can't find air to breathe...

Held up on a pedestal
I held the perfect pose...

I don't know how to say this
But I'm scared... all of the time...

My life is twist turning about
I'm too excited to sleep...

Twirling in the mirror
Seeing my halo dim...

Your cold but tea can't warm you
Tired but sleep can't help...

Once again I can't sleep
Choices are chasing around my head...

You talk but you don't listen
Or if you do, doesn't last for long...

Conflicting emotions
That never balance out...

I've tried so hard, So many times
To write down what I feel...

Self destructive patterns
I try so hard to stop...