I cant control these feelings
Like I cant control the past...

I wrote this a couple of weeks ago, hoping things...
If anything...

I can’t do it anymore
I’ve given up of trying...

It really does surprise me
At just how blind people can be...

My mind is so chaotic
I can't find air to breathe...

Self destructive patterns
I try so hard to stop...

They look but no-one sees me
My tears, my anguish and grief...

Conflicting emotions
That never balance out...

I’m so angry at this world
My life’s worse than a joke...

I don't know what you find
When you look and smile at me...

Memories come rushing past
They're bittersweet and tainted...

I’m not alone… not alone, alone...
I’m not happy, are any of us...