Tomorrow my counselling,
Then help for my drinking in despair...

I've spent my whole life feeling worthless,
But now I know that this is what worthless...

It's been almost 6 weeks since I ruined our lives,
Became someone I never thought I could be...

This lifelong fight between living and leaving,
Two opinions in my mind, today which one am I...

I just fall to pieces,
Yet you think I have it good...

I lay here, naked,
Bedcover down at my feet...

Four walls, closing in,
The ceiling is pushing down...

It's 2:36am and I'm doing the dishes from 2 days...
My head swarms, with if onlys and should've dones...

Still don't know,
If I'm coming or going...

Laying in bed, staring at the ceiling,
Trying to escape what it is I am feeling...

Smile and the world smiles with you.
Laugh and we all laugh with you...

Well sometimes the wrong can be right
You close your eyes to see the light...