And in that split second, I realised it was over....

Look Happy.
Talk Happy.
Act Happy.

Just don't let on that you're a fake.

At the end of the day, even after everything everyones done to me, the only person I really hate is myself.

Im sorry I ever let you know the truth,
I guess it just showed in how I behaved.....
I didnt want you to see that all I am,
Is a desperate little girl wanting to be saved......

Yeah I lied...
But really I tried....
I just need more pain...
To keep me satisfied...

Your words stab me,
Like a knife in the heart.
They sting like hell,
Then tear me apart....

Joke and laugh, and smile every day,
Dont let them see that you're not ok.
For if you hide and dont let them know,
They wont be trying to stop you, when you decide to go.

Once again I take the knife,
Try to stop the hurt try to quit my life.
Once again I try to succeed,
And pray my wrists shall bleed and bleed.
That the blood shall drain away from me,
And let my tortured soul be free.

It kills me inside to see you sad,
But Ill do anything to help you through.
I couldnt save myself Im afraid,
So Ill try my best to save you....

I battled so very hard...
But now Ive given up the fight...
I tried to be strong, but I failed...
Im sorry, Im ending my life tonight...