I still miss you
I still love you
I still want you
I still need you next to me
But you are gone forever,
and forever seems a lot longer than it really is...
will we ever meet again anywhere but in my dreams?

I can hear you when you whisper... why can't you hear me when I scream?

Wow I have dreamed about this all my life... me liking you, you liking me... I know that you like me and you know that I like you... Yet you don't want to be more than friends... why?

Lying here on the floor where you left me, trying to put the peices back together from something that we never had, but how am I supposed to fix us if we were never real?

(part of a poem I am in the process of writing)

Its been a year since you hung yourself with an ace bandage from a ceiling fan... thinking back on it now it still hurts just as much as it did a year ago! I still blame myself I could've stopped it!

I hate what I've become... but I hate you more for making me like this!

I was just able to deal with you suicide,
but now there is a sick new twist,
it wasn\\\'t a suicide but a murder
who could have predicted this?