I sit on the cool floor
in my dimly lit room
cutting until i can take no more
until on my arm there is no room

"friend of mine, stay alive, don't you leave me here, all alone in this world with a chronic tear, i will always be here, i will always be here, i will always be here for you"

-by eve 6 but it fits...

dedicated to shannon

I feel like i'm losing everything i've ever known.
this is what happens when secret emotions are shown.

You told me you hated life
you told me you wanted to die
you told me no one cared
you told me no one was there
you told me all these things
you told me your feelings
you told me everything

i let you down

When you told me those things
i wished i had wings
so i could go to you, so i could fly
and be there while you cry
when you told me those things
i had the worst feelings
i have ever experienced in my life
and again i turned to the knife

He spoke to me of things he shouldn't have known
he spoke to me about stuff only you knew
you betrayed everything i ever told you
you betrayed every ounce of trust
it hurt so deep, it hurt so bad
having to relive everything...

Tears flood your eyes
no more can you lie
you begin to cry
and i see you just want to die

and it breaks my heart
to see you fall apart
i know there is nothing more i can do
to help you through

i feel like loving you isnt enough...

When she was sad she never cried, just slit her wrists and hoped to die
she made herself feel, so she would know it was real
she wants more than anything to be dead, because those things were said

The tears fill my eyes and
i feel the lines in my arm
the checkerboard shape
it's carved there
i run my finger over the cuts
and wonder why
why i don't have the courage
to end this

When everything around you is a reminder of what you used to be, how do you keep from going back there?

when all you can see are the scars, how do you keep yourself from creating more?