I mar my appearance
i destroy my skin...

I see him everyday
i hear his fake laugh...

So close yet so far away
so present but invisible...

This is it. I'm done
i can't handle it. i haven't won...

I woke up this morning
late, as usual...

I started out normal
i only liked guys...

This was written awhile ago.. as were others.
the best of friends...

The anger that burns behind my eyes
The hatred I feel building deep inside...

Why is he so blind? Can't he see?
He means much more than that to me...

I want to go home
but supposedly I'm there...

Look what you've done to me
are you happy with what you see...

And so you know the truth
finally you all know...