All f u c k e d up
And I don't know how
How I ever got to where I feel
Like I am dying on the inside
I want to be happy
But I don't know how

Whats wrong with me?
what have I become?
a s l u t and a w h o r e,
the worst you can even imagine,
and maybe even more.

Caught in a world of pretend,
lost in a world of hate,
fighting the pain away,
each and everyday.
the blade slips in deeper,
i feel the lies pour out,
inside i've become so numb,
fix it with some rum.

Theres nothing inside,
at least thats how it feels,
i hope i wake from this dream,
before i hit bottom

Shove me under you again
I can't wait for this to end
Sober, empty in the head
I know I can never win
Why should I have to wait
I'll just look the other way

You said you'd love
To see the end
The long hard road
That I have been
When all these dreams have come to end
You wish you were, you're not my friend
Blind eyes shine through

I don't wanna be bold
I don't wanna be cold
I don't wanna grow old
I don't wanna go home

There is no way to recover
you told me there is no other
the surface is getting hotter
I'll shove your head under water
but I won't ever let you drown
no I won't ever let you down

I find it hard to decide
the way to make up your mind
your lips are better than mine
so you can kiss this goodbye

I couldn't imagine
Why you would save yourself