To the world i appear the happiest person on earth and i should have no reason to be sad b/c of how well of i am.....
But then again the world doesnt know shit and money cant buy everything....

The blood flowing down my vains,
oh it satisfies me
but only for a little bit
only for awhile
then i cut again
and i shall never get better.....

>Just another lost soul wondering the earth, waiting for someone to find me

The pain of my innocence leaveing me when he was raping me was just to much to bare...
I DIED RIGHT THERE...........

>You have to hit rock bottom before you can ever be on top

Looking for a reason
Just to stay here today
Looking for a way
Just to make it thru the day

Once his gone he wont be back so dont take forgranted what you have

When someone asks are you okay?
I always say what really is okay?
And are you prepared to hear my answer?
Most people can't even answer my 1st ?

These scars have become a part of me
hoping they go away
they dont
maybe its just a reminder of what
really make me , me
and what makes everything okay!

Why wont this black spirt that has taken hold of me let me go
it just pulls me farther to its side