Slit my throat
cut my wrist
it's all ending to night

Wanting You gets Me through the day
Not having You kills Me at night

I wanna take this blade
i wanna cut so deep
not to feel this pain

These feelings start to resurface
they start to come through
im starting to lose the control i once had

My dear brother
oh my dear brother
you dont know
how much it hurts
that i dont have you close to me
anymore
And why is this
because of a girl
....You traded me for Her....
And now my heart cant that this
emptiness........

Theres an emptiness
that hunts my soul
it goes away and never stops attacking me

I'm trying to deal with this on my own
i'm too frittened to tell anyone
i don't want my mom to go through this again
but the more i hide the more it shows

I'm fighting this battle
i'm starting to believe
that i can not go on......

Missing her so much i just want things to be the way they used to be
Why can't they....

Im so confused
i love you but seriously
could i see my life with you?
no
and to realize this it hurts so bad
i dont want to live without you
yet it would only hurt worse later....