I'm sick of this feeling
the one that i feel always...

To the boy who is my lover, who has transformed...
These words that I'm writing, I solemnly swear its...

The sky was dark
the grass was green...

It hit me, the slap in the face of an angel
He'd fit many shapes, but turned to a slight angle...

Today was horrible
i was so frustrated at myself and mad...

Eyes glowing to the sky, a voice begins to shout
The moon looks so bright, above my sea of doubt...

People say i need to get help
but look at them there just as worse...

A glooming day, the sun won't rise
I transformed into definitions of what i despise...

I ask am only a portion of you, am I denseless?
My feelings inexistent to your devotion, to you I...

Wow i took the knife
i actually used it this time...

Steffan,
i wanted you to love me...

I cant control it
when i take this blade...