Why live when your life is only filled with pain and sadness? Why hold on?

My river of tears
you always show up at night
when I\\\'m the most weak
the time you know i cant fight
My river of tears
Will you ever dry?
can anything make you go away
or is it only if i die?

from my poem *my river of tears

have mercy on my long nights
have mercy on all my fights
please hear my prayers and forgive
Oh god, help me live!

*from my poem ''Forgive me father for i have sinned..''

What use is it to live when on the inside your dead...?

Im already beaten.. So why do life keep kicking me?