I can only hope that somehow I am enough for you to want to come back.

I crave the rush of nicotine, the way it turns my fingertips into a tingling blur of motion. How I can feel it in my toes. Can close my eyes and just be, for just a moment.

Self diagnosis: pathetic.

“Rules” by Doja Cat, “Roof” by Jessie Reyez and “damn Right” by Audrey Nuna are my hype songs for the day.

“ILYSB” by Lany on repeat while running errands, wishing you were right beside me.

Life often takes more than it gives. But it can reward you for your struggles and heartbreak with some of the most beautiful things. Or sometimes it just hurts and there are lessons to be learned.

“Bitter Sweet Symphony” by The Verve on repeat this morning.

Scraped knees lead to tougher skin. Bleeding is not a sign of weakness, just that you are human. Not invincible but incredibly resilient even if the healing process is slow.

“Older Than I Am” by Lennon Stella always makes me cry.

Lyrics to “The Only Exception” by Paramore, spilled from my own lips, echoing off my shower walls this morning.