I've never been happy,
not in my childhood, adolescence or as an adult...
I'm exhausted,
I try to scream and detach...
My tears roll
and my mind screams...
as much as i want her to
my body will not lie...
I mustn't tether pain to land
With knots that will not loose or fray...
So much easier to fake a smile
Rather than to tell the truth...
The war is all a blur now, there is nothing I...
Maybe it was us against the world, me against you...
I climb the mountain with no safety line,
Hanging by fingernails out of my mind...
The anger keeps me alive every single time.
It's all part of the cycle...
What is this place, it’s not what they said.
There’s no golden gates, just icy cold dread...
The ocean calls to me -
Her siren song so captivatingly harmonious...
You ask what depression’s like for me, and I try...
how it comes in a myriad of shapes and shades...