Too many pictures and not enough memories
It’s as if the camera lived a life not me...
(trigger warning)
Depression is not just the lack of joy...
(trigger warning)
It was messier than I meant it to be...
Do you see them?
Because I do...
Such a night should I change even more? So much is...
I keep my temper but I am angry.
I save my arguments for in the shower...
That pivotal moment you decide for the first time...
You grapple with your urges and find it within...
I walked every avenue of avoidance just to find...
Everytime I shut down the experience it resurfaced...
It's the song I had on repeat when I was broken.
The one I kept going back too...
I am not OK.
I haven't been OK in a long time...
That's the thing about depression
it keeps coming back...
I thought I was getting better,
I thought I was free from the dark path...