Within the walls that barricade her heart
Hate soars above the railings of despair...
November 28, 2023.
I think it's coming again. I feel it in my body...
I didn't know what a massacre is then.
I didn't know what it entails...
Last night, the rain raged for six
hours straight, for me to wake up to...
I could disintegrate with a gust of wind.
My bones and body feel brittle and hollow...
I want to face things head on.
I go to EMDR therapy to...
In the shadows I dwell,
Heartache I embrace...
They're going to notice soon -
the hollowness in my eyes...
It's exhausting to spend all my energy for the day...
This moment that hits me like a tidal wave...
Sitting alone out in the cold
Begging for a speck of hope to hold...
Thinking all the time overloaded in this mind of...
Everyday in so much pain and misery I’m fighting...
Like the scars that line her arms,
amid a dark and blackened heart...