You were there-
In my phone explaining why you went away as if I...
I woke with your memory over me-
Blue eyes and a soft smile dissolved by the light...
I searched for your face in the crowd-
I knew it was pointless and yet I did it anyways...
I wrote an elegy and it won because they mistook...
The flowers in my kitchen were never surface level...
I sobbed over you in the grocery store parking...
I was just trying to get milk but grief isn’t...
The ice on the pavement was as cold as the silence...
It was the same silence I’ve lived with for over...
I was making pork chops for dinner.
It was late and I knew it’d take four hours...
Your name popped up on my screen-
I’d been waiting for the notification for days...
I should’ve gone with you but I had to work-
I didn’t need any more trauma...
Nobody gets to tell me how to handle my grief.
I’m sobbing in my kitchen again...
I searched for you on the satellite map-
Your location wasn’t on but I did it anyways...
The pavement led you to my house.
Washed grey roads and gravel crunching under...