Im a disaster in heels,
A living mistake.
Ive held on so long,
My grip started to break.

You can dream, dream to forget, but you wake up, you always do, and when you wake up, the pain will come back too..

He has always been looking at something far beyond, far higher than me. I could never give him that which he desires. Even so...even so, I'm sure that even when tomorrow comes, or the day after, or thereafter, I will still be helplessly in love with him.

Often, i find myself wanting to be alone.
but my biggest fear is that i will be.

And i smiled, knowing, that i would never
make it, i never had a chance, but i fought with all i could.

My backs up aqainst a wall, my hands held up hiqh,
ill hold my head up twords the sky.
I said enouqh was enouqh
it was just to much.
I was tired of havinq a voice, and beinq told to hush.

They found her on the bedroom floor, her arms cascadinq red, a note to all her loved ones, of why she was dead. a smile fashioned on her face, alike everysinqle day, she played her script so well, a self tauqht actress she was made. ( from my poem)
.

Each time I look at a picture of myself, I can remember the happiness that I once had, but can't feel the person that I once was at one time.

I fear going to bed at night because every time I wake up, i wake up thinking its okay . then i notice ... its not and never will be

When your world's tumbling down and you don't know what to do just turn up the music and cry your heart out. </3