Help save me

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Tears can be the bravest way to tackle a problem. My biggest mistake was not crying. When you cry, you acknowledge that those feelings are there. The feelings don't need to be stopped or suppressed. They need to run their course but that doesn't mean you do nothing, don't get me wrong.

You said that if YOU don't fix this... I know you want to help your mom, but putting all that responsibility on yourself is unfair. You're only 15, (According to your profile) you should not have this kind of responsibility put on yourself. It's her job. You should be happy instead of worrying about your mother's next job. I'm not saying your thoughts are wrong, just a little unfair on yourself. You can be there for her though. Have you tried sitting down with her and telling her that you want to understand? Point out that no matter what happens, you two are family and family helps each other. Provide support but really, to put too much responsibility on yourself will kill all your happiness. I know how you feel about taking this responsibility, but really, it's not fair on you and it will be debilitating. and you want be happy. By giving the responsibility back, you will find more happiness.

You said your parents split up. Is your dad still around? When you're alone, and the feelings come rolling in, write about them or ask your boyfriend if it's ok if you call him and talk about them.

I hope things get better and I'll be more than happy to help you through if you want to talk about it more with an "anonymous" audience.

I dunno how to make it stop I mean I've got the same situation, I always thought negotiation solves it but the problem is my mum doesn't like to negotiate, it only ends up with us having an arguement... I dunno what to say, but try to be patiant with your mum and lay low, stay out of her way, let her calm down then maybe you can get to an agreement where she would let you help her... otherwise you can help her without her knowing, comfort her, hug her and try supporting her in the best way you can without making her feel like you're doing something for her

Thankyou all for your help because im really trying to get over this.
Alexine about the boyfriend thing, I know that its not good for me to rely on him so much and thats why I'm so scared to lose him because of exactly that. How can i become more independant because I really dont know how to. I know i rely on him alot because he's the only person in my life who i can tell my thoughts too because he's strong enough to help me with these problems. I would ussually tell my mum but i cant because of all her problems and she needs to get them fixed before she worries about me. I know i shouldnt have to have a lot of responsibility but she has had a hard life raising 3 kids pretty much on her own all her life and living in a place she hates and only stays here becoz of us but yes please what can i do to become more strong?

For the other questions, my dad was never around all of the time for my life anyway because he goes away for months at a time for work. When my parents split up he moved out and he now ends up staying away for a lot longer. I love my dad a lot but we have a few things to sort out becoz he feels guilty about what he did to our family.

Please dont think I'm going to hurt myself or anything its actually quiet the opposite. I love life that much that i want mine to be happy again. I want to fix these problems instead of letting them get to me and i appriciate all your help

In a way im like you, i used to be happy smile alot and be incredibly kind... But i started to get bullied to the point now after 5 nearly 6 years of bullying i will gladly punch some one even if they annoy me a little, big change huh.... All i can say to the rummers is to ignor them and try your upmost hardest to make it look like it doesnt bother you, if it does carry on though you should go to a teacher you know and trust, i have one at my school who is more like one of us then a teacher.

I think in a way your mothers trying to protect you by not letting you interfear, and it probly hurts her to do it to you, seeing as you two have gone through a rough time already.
I feel sorry for your mom having to keep finding a job... I just hope she find a job that is good for her soon.

Im afraid there isnt a quick way out of these feelings i would sugest finding your self a quiet place and close your eyes and brath in deeply and out.... bascily find a happy place in your mind and although this has never worked for me because i fall asleep let your troubles out...
One thing that does help is shouting into a wide space like words just make sure no ones around or they might think your crazy or talking to them (which isnt good)

I know what your going through..my parents split up and my mom also has medical problems...but i live with my dad..and the school thing...just walk in there with your held high..don't let them get you down cause the minute they see that they got to you there going to think that they can do it all the time and they cant..be strong...i know how hard that can be but just try your best..and if your bf makes you feel safe and better then spend more time with him..the person that makes you the strongest is the best person to be around..and keep trying to help your mom..she needs you now more than ever

good luck with everything and if you ever need someone to talk to then you can always pm me